14 October 2010

[talk: Pumpkin Frustration.]

Long and short - yesterday was a day full of frustration.  It seemed that everything went wrong, and I spent most of the day waiting and re-planning ... some Yaahoo flipped the bird at me while I was merging into his lane ... and it's amazing.  That totally deflated me.

It started with a 55 minute wait at the Dr. office with Katia and ended with me falling apart at the end of the day.  After dinner, I was lying on my stomach on the familyroom carpet to help with some stomach pains and Josiah decided I was a trampoline and BUM DROPPED on my back.  I started sobbing - out of control sobbing, to the point that my hubby was like, "You're scaring the kids."

I couldn't stop.

Poor little guy ... he didn't mean it, and either did I.  But the water works just flowed ... it was just one of those days.  And the truth is ... it really wasn't the worst day of my life.  Not even close.  In fact, it was actually a good day - but I felt so defeated, so attacked.  Don't even know why.

Ever have a day like that??

We did make it to the pumpkin patch - oh, and that's a story all on its own.  I picked up a friend and her kids, headed to the patch - only to find it was closed.  UGH.  So, we wandered around, and found one ... only to realize that they only took cash.  Off we went to the bank ... yadayadayada ...  BUT - it was a BEAUTIFUL patch and we had it all to ourselves.  And the pumpkins were CHEAP.  17cents a pound.  Brilliant.

So, today is going to be a great day *grin*.   I feel it.  I already finished my first day of "Jillian's 30day Shred".  I can run 10km, no prob, but the 20min strength and abs almost killed me.  Which actually, was really great.  A new challenge - and running isn't toning my body the way I need it to.  Losing weight is good - if you need to (which I certainly do) - but toning is going to be the key to feeling like I've accomplished something ...

Hmmm ... I didn't weigh in this week, did I.    Today's weight:   134.2lbs  ... down a fraction from my lowest.  I'm only 2lbs from prepreggo weight ... almost 10lbs to my goal.  Working, working, working ...

Anyway, here are some pics from yesterday's trip to the pumpkin patch ... 











Have a good one ... 

7 comments:

Shawna said...

YES! I've had those days where I just feel out of control, not mad/angry or anything, just wanted and did cry!

Good job on keeping up with the workout! I love Jillian, well, love to hate her!

Have a great day!
xo, *S

Jason and Kristin said...

I definately had one, maybe 2 of those days this week with a sick teething baby! Its allowed!
You've reminded me about Jillian! I haven't done it in a few weeks and there is really no excuse! I need to get back on it! So thanks for the reminder - I'm going to get back into this week! Love ya!

Mary said...

GREAT picture, Tawn! The last one is my fav :)

Anonymous said...

I have many of those days.. We are allowed, we are mommas and some times we just need to sobb :( Your pics are amazing as ususal , and we are going to call you to capture our family real soon.. XOXo see you at HHW

Have a wonderful weekend!!!

Tawn said...

... LADIES. love you all.

xx

Chad & Trisha Bennett said...

Sorry it was a rough day. These pictures are AMAZING though!!! I only see joy and love in all of them. Here's to better days and pre-baby weight. YEAH!

Lori said...

BEAUTIFUL pictures!

I'm sorry about the "deflated" day. I had a similar one a few weeks ago.

And about the running...I have run 2 half marathons now and have built muscle (and pounds) but not toned!! So I will be going back to Jillian (and spin class :)