Tomorrow, I run my first half marathon.
With the kids filled up with pancakes and my hubby sipping coffee and catching up on the news, I thought that I should take a minute and write about how I'm feeling - as I may want to look back on today and see how I felt.
So. How am I feeling??
Excited. Nervous. Scared.
I'm not sure what to expect. Am I afraid that I can't do it? Um. Yes - yes, I am. But not for my lack of wanting to. I just know what it's like to have my body say "enough" and the pain of a pulled muscle or shin splints. I feel that my mind is ready - which, from what I understand, is half the battle.
I've had the "thumbs up" from my massage therapist ... everything seems to be in perfect working order. I ran almost 11km on Monday, and cycled on the stationary bike at home for almost 1.5 hours on Thursday. No pain. So today - I'll be stretching, stretching, stretching.
My intention is to just push through, although I know that some think that a possible injury from that isn't worth it. But somehow, I need to just DO it. Push it. Go for it.
Will I do this again?
Honestly - at how I'm feeling today ... no. It takes SO much time to prepare, and I've been missing out on all of the other different kind of exercising I like. I'm looking forward to doing a simple 5km once a week, maybe a 7 or 10km ... a Jillian DVD when it's raining - and maybe even joining a friend for a cardio class in the evenings. I want to continue to tone, to get stronger ...
But who knows? Maybe I'll finish tomorrow and think, "man - I REALLY did it. I can do that again ... "
Right now, I'm working on a playlist for the run. Trying to balance the spiritual with the motivational. Sometimes I just need a plain ol' rockin' tune ... and sometimes I need the emotional and spiritual filling of a good Christian song.
I also have to go pick up my race package today ... and tomorrow I'll be getting my timer chip. That's going to be interesting - to see how it matches/doesn't match with my own Nike chip. And apparently there may be a medal for all those who finish. I've never gotten an athletic medal before. I just may never take it off *wink*. But first ... I just need to finish it.
Gosh ... my heart is literally pounding as I write all of this. Eek.
Have a great one!