13 September 2008

[talk: My Eulogy. And Some Hockey too.]

You'd think that I was morbid - with all the dying fish around here, has it gotten me to think about things in a "finalized" kind-of way??
Nope.

BUT tonight I went to the ocean with Josiah. My husband was hosting a stag at our home, and Mattias wanted to stay for the dinner - so being female, I chose to leave and brought my little guy with me. I had no clue as to where I was going to go - actually aimlessly driving south. "Where to go, where to go," I thought. And I ended up at the beach. It was a glorious late-afternoon and Siah and I threw rocks in the ocean, walked along the beach while he pushed his own stroller - it was a quiet, reflective time for me.

Then, I led us to different neighbourhoods - something I love to do - checking out the different homes and the feelings they give off. Some were cozy, some were cold - and some I started dreaming of living in. And THAT's what got me to thinking about my Eulogy.

See - I was looking and dreaming, thinking "oh, if only". And with those thoughts came others; and I wondered how many of us think "if only" and that would make our lives happier. If only we had a basement or a larger backyard. Or a boat. Or a vacation property. Or if we were thinner. Or taller. Or maybe if a relative was still alive, or perhaps if a loved one wasn't sick. And it goes on and on. I think that it's all valid - but it seems to me that we should be easily satisfied - which is a contradiction to the belief I have in hard work and moving forward in life as well. But, that sense of drive is a God given thing - but so is being satisfied, I think.

Which brings me to my eulogy. I wonder what people will say about me when I die - and hopefully I have some time before that'll happen *grin*. Some people don't like me, I know that ... and they probably wouldn't even come *smile*. But the people who do like me and know me for me ... I would want them to think of me as easily satisfied - that I was happy and content. And I think I am for the most part - I don't complain about material things, but I need to be content with the stage of life that I'm at. And that's something I'll be working on.

Ok ... enough of all that *my brain hurts*. How 'bout some hockey??? Oh - you're gonna laugh at this. My husband is OVER the MOON about the new team he's on - and their jerseys were bought at an auction from a movie set (so none of their names are on them *laughing* - they're all the character's names). He got me to pack up the kids and take some pics at last night's game. The boys LOVED it ... and here are some pics.




6 comments:

Antinozzi said...

and your hubby's hockey name is ...

Janean Bennett said...

Busted. I was just feeling sorry for myself last night. "Or maybe if a relative was still alive" - just nailed it...then I did get to thinking that the "what if's" are just so very pointless. Busted! J

rhonda said...

It's funny how we think about those things, huh? I sure did after my very serious car accident. I know some people think it's morbid, but I also think it's healthy. It makes us think about who/what we really want to be, and what changes we have to make to be that better person. At least for me, it did. :)

I do HAVE to ask, how on earth did you get such good photos in an arena? Was it well lit? Special camera settings? An AWESOME camera? Nifty editing?
I spend soooo much time in arenas, and have yet to master that awful lighting.
I especially love the pic of the kids watching.....

Tawn said...

JB - I had wondered if I should write those words ... but I have friends who have lost loved ones and it is such a painful recovery for those left behind. Be validated - time heals, time does not forget. xo

Rhonda ... I have a NikonD60 and I use photoshop Lightroom *the greatest program EVER*. I try not to use a flash - I like the way natural light works (in this case, the arena light). And if it helps - I took almost 200 pics, and only about 60 were good. I didn't post the "action" shots - didn't really think anyone would care *laughing* ...

Jacinda said...

I think I'm a bit like you in that I'm easily satisfied. With my life anyway. Dreaming of what if's are fun sometimes, but I try to enjoy the things I have and make the most of the blessings I have already.

Just to clarify how I found your site. I was leaving a comment on Yin's blog, and read your comment to her in the pop up window. You'd included a link to your site, and I liked the way you wrote, so thought I'd come check out your blog. I'm glad I did. :)

Jenn VH said...

Love the photo with all the "hockey wives." Looks like a good time!!