BUT tonight I went to the ocean with Josiah. My husband was hosting a stag at our home, and Mattias wanted to stay for the dinner - so being female, I chose to leave and brought my little guy with me. I had no clue as to where I was going to go - actually aimlessly driving south. "Where to go, where to go," I thought. And I ended up at the beach. It was a glorious late-afternoon and Siah and I threw rocks in the ocean, walked along the beach while he pushed his own stroller - it was a quiet, reflective time for me.
Then, I led us to different neighbourhoods - something I love to do - checking out the different homes and the feelings they give off. Some were cozy, some were cold - and some I started dreaming of living in. And THAT's what got me to thinking about my Eulogy.
See - I was looking and dreaming, thinking "oh, if only". And with those thoughts came others; and I wondered how many of us think "if only" and that would make our lives happier. If only we had a basement or a larger backyard. Or a boat. Or a vacation property. Or if we were thinner. Or taller. Or maybe if a relative was still alive, or perhaps if a loved one wasn't sick. And it goes on and on. I think that it's all valid - but it seems to me that we should be easily satisfied - which is a contradiction to the belief I have in hard work and moving forward in life as well. But, that sense of drive is a God given thing - but so is being satisfied, I think.
Which brings me to my eulogy. I wonder what people will say about me when I die - and hopefully I have some time before that'll happen *grin*. Some people don't like me, I know that ... and they probably wouldn't even come *smile*. But the people who do like me and know me for me ... I would want them to think of me as easily satisfied - that I was happy and content. And I think I am for the most part - I don't complain about material things, but I need to be content with the stage of life that I'm at. And that's something I'll be working on.
Ok ... enough of all that *my brain hurts*. How 'bout some hockey??? Oh - you're gonna laugh at this. My husband is OVER the MOON about the new team he's on - and their jerseys were bought at an auction from a movie set (so none of their names are on them *laughing* - they're all the character's names). He got me to pack up the kids and take some pics at last night's game. The boys LOVED it ... and here are some pics.