[talk: So Much Talent.]

Ok.   I have a little secret.

Well - it's not REALLY a secret - but it's out of my comfort zone and I've only told a couple of people.  But since this is my blog, and I create annual "books" of my entries, I figured it's time to  spill it on something that I've just kinda started doing ... 

Well ... let me fast forward here a bit to Sunday night ... If any of you are my FB friend, you'll know that I was at a concert that evening.  A friend of mine and I (my hubby's not too interested in concerts for some reason ...) went and saw "The Civil Wars" at the Vogue Theatre downtown.  

It was incredible.

The opening band was a group called "Milo Greene" and they killed it.  Every song the band members swapped instruments (nothing cooler than a chick playing bass, no?) ... 4 voices, harmonies, a tambourine ... it was spectacular.

Then The Civil Wars took stage ... just a guy, a girl and his guitar.  That's it.  And their voices were supernatural ... their own instruments.  The control, the melodies, the chemistry ... the song writing.

My friend and I sat in row three.  Close enough to see spit droplets when consonants were sung *grin* ... 

It was all just too much - in a good way.

And as I sat there, I looked over and saw my new friend and his wife grinning from ear to ear.  He was, after all, the reason my friend and I were there in the first place.  He had invited us.

See ... I've started songwriting him - a guy from my church.  He approached me a couple of months back and said, "so - whatcha doing with your music - outside of church?"  To which I said, "um.  nothing?"  He thought that we should hang and see if we were compatible to song-write together.

We've gotten together only twice ... he's written a bucketload, I've written one - and we've started doing some co-writing.  Really fun ... really nerve-wracking ... something I've never done before.

Back to Sunday night ... 

As I sat there, I found it so hard to feel confident in my own talents when they were obviously so much less than what I was witnessing.  Please understand - this is not an insult to myself *smile*.  It's just reality.  There is always someone better than you ... it's just the way it is.

I found myself going back in my mind to the reason why I joined up with my new friend in the first place.  I don't want to be a rock star.  Ha!  I'm not a rockstar ... I'm just a 37year old stay-at-home-mom-of-three who plays at church once a month and is thankful to take photos for others when they ask ... 

But I want to write, just ... because.  And I want to sing just ... because it's what I need to do.  I have no unrealistic dreams of what my songwriting/co-writing/singing will become.  I just know that I want to create music.

So.  For today ... I'm going to try and not feel overwhelmed with all that I cannot do ... like the supernatural vocal gymnastics that I heard that night by The Civil Wars.  Instead, I'm going to try and feel inspired - to do new things - different things - challenge myself ... 

Um.  That's all.

Yup.

Have a good one *smile*.